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Friday, February 5, 2010

Why am I here?

Well alrighty then. I feel the need for some verbal upchuck so here goes.

Recently, I landed a new job (go me!) and seem to be happier in the new workplace and with the larger sums of money that are being dirctly deposited into my account for my time and services. A fair trade it seems. Now,...those who know me and know me well, also know that I have had an extremely turbulent and painful past with members of the opposite sex. I seem to be the super-magnet for all things "asshole" and/or have a desire for things and poeple who are unattainable. You know, the whole "all the good ones are taken, married, or gay" saying.

Jeremy*, (* name has been changed for obvious reasons) is one of those guys. Married,...with a big, fat, capital "M". But this guy, in particular, is one fo those poeple that makes you wonder what would have happened if we had met prior to him meeting his wife. I'm sure she's a sweet girl and as far as she is concerned, let me make it clear that I have no intention on EVER poaching. I am just not one of those types of women. I believe marriage is sacred and should not be messed with. lol But she has a very attractive husband, good for her. haha But in hopes that I am not hated for thinking some other woman's husband is attractive, I must tell you...the coincidental things he and I have in common are strange. We are both Marines, of the former type. I got out in Feb of 2007, he got out a few years later. But we got to talking about our duty stations and places we have been,... and our tours of duty were ALL in the same places. And at one point, just before I got out, we were on the same base at the same time and never even knew it. Now, we are miles away from that last duty station where we bother were, and are working at the same place present day. One of my tasks at work is to account for man hours on the trucks. Every employee has a badge number. The numbers of his badge number coincide with the month and day that I first set my feet on the yellow footprints on Parris Island, South Carolina (home of Marine Corps Recruit Depot, Parris Island-affectionately called "P.I."). The first day of my journey in becoming a Marine. It's strange to me. So, I always wonder if God does things to open your eyes to certain things. To make you sit up and pay attention. In my usual glass is half empty way of thinking, I'm sure its just a string of strange coincidences that mean absoulutely nothing. But they are thought provoking nonetheless.

Would things be different had we met in California prior to my getting out of the Corps? Would I have stayed in and forgone a terrible marriage? Would I have carried out a longer carreer as a Marine? Is he significant to my life present day in some way? Am I here to help him through or with something or vice versa? Are we to become good friends? Is it his wife I am to become friends with? His children that my donating bone marrow will save thier lives? Or is it just coincidence? Will I donate blood and save his sister-in-law? Or is it me? Will he have a significant impact on MY life? Its hard to tell what God has in store for you until you are right up on the events that shape your life, but I always wonder about things that are THAT strangely coincidental. It brings to mind the constant and ever popular question: Why am I here?

1 comment:

  1. Go with your gut feeling, mine has never lead me down the wrong path. Its only when you ignore it that you have that "ah" duh feeling. I also don't believe in coincidence, I think everything in life happens for a reason. It maybe a reason that we do not understand but one day hopefully will.

    PS: Glad to see your back to blogging!

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