This Morning

So this morning I feel different.  I don't know why exactly.  I just do.  I rolled out of bed much too late to do anything about my wet hair when I got out of the quickie PTA (pits, tits, and ass) shower that I had to take. I also left the house without packing a lunch so you KNOW there was no time to grab breakfast.  And instead of running through the drive-thru at McDonald's (I heart their coffee) because the thought of eating something greasy just turned my stomach, I opted to go through the Starbucks drive-thru.  Needing a pick-me-up I chose a Venti Skinny Cinnamon Dolce Latte and a Perfect Oatmeal.  I must say this P.O. is absolutely delish and my coffee is currently serving it's purpose.  Today will be a good day.

But last night, I told Mr. NRN that I would no longer be able to be his friend with benefits.  I'm just not the kind of girl who can give just a little.  When I like/love someone, it's with all of me.  But I did tell him that when he IS ready for a relationship and if he considers me for his other half, that I hope that I'm available to be.  And that much is true.  I really do adore him and think that he is a good guy, but, if I can't have all of him, I'll have to do without any of him.  I deserve a lot more than what I'm doing to myself by allowing myself to be in that type of relationship. *sigh*

In addition to that mess, my ex fiance, we will call him Mr. Italian, from 10 years ago has recently gotten back in touch with me.  And his angle is my heart.  I don't know what to think or do about this situation because first of all, he lives in California, I live in Texas.  And I'm not leaving Texas.  Period. 

I know.  How selfish of me to think/say that, right?  Well, I'll tell you!  Everytime I was broken up with, it was ME who had to pack my stuff and relocate.  ME who had to start over.  ME who had to find another job or whatever else could possibly inconvenience me.  In addition to that, I am now a single mother.  My son does not deserve to be bounced around like that.  Especially since he has his bearings right where he is.  So, if a man wants to be with me, he can come to me, too.  And that's all I have to say about that.  lol

I have one more that I have become interested in lately.  Thanks to Ms. Adventure, I am now corresponding through e-mail at this point with someone who has really caught my attention.  Very sweet and very witty is Mr. G.  I have not met him in person as he lives in Houston and I live north of Austin, but hopefully, one of these days I will.  And like she said, if nothing else, I will have gained a friend.  I like the way she thinks.

On Friday morning I leave, with son in tow, to spend Memorial Day weekend in NOLA (New Orleans, Louisiana) visiting some friends.  I'm sure to have fun, but this week needs to hurry up and just get over with!  I'm ready for my weekend!!!  (should also prove nerve wracking interesting traveling by plane with a 14 month old...)  Say a little prayer for us that we make it in one piece!!

Ciao!